Riding today

I've been working towards doing a 100 mile ride and it starts right now. So I'm going to be spending the next few hours looking at a lot of guys asses in spandex. Nice tight asses, and arms, and stomachs, all for the next 100 miles. My one concerns is that I've been training enough that most guys are going to be staring at my ass as I'm at the head of the peloton, leading the way.

It's amazing what can fit in an ass

I first say this photo and my initial reaction is that the guy on the left is the mortal enemy of the guy in the sling and he is reaching in and about to pull out the guys heart and laugh maniacally as the guys dies, watching his heart beat in the hands of another guy as the life fades from his body.

Put the scenario in an R rated film and a good christian person will go and see that and maybe even laugh manically along with the killer. Because obviously to have the power to reach into another person and pull out their still beating heart requires the conviction of a true believer to occur.

Have the same scenario in a film where hard cocks are also shown, and suddenly it becomes a depravity of society that must end, or all of mankind is going to fall apart at the seams.

Personally I'm just amazed that the bottom, in this case, is experiencing pleasure on a level that most people will never experience, and that a human appendage of that size and length can fit into an orifice to that depth. I would guess that stuff like this has gone on since the dawn of man, and just because a photo of this is now available to be seen by someone that couldn't imagine such an act, doesn't mean that it's not natural. It also doesn't meant that I may every see something like this in person much less experience it.

Update on the 8" dildo

The dildo has gone well. I've learned that because it's a realistic representation of the male cock, then dong is the proper term to use in this situation. So one afternoon last week, after the office was cleared out, I pulled the box off the shelf where I am storing said phallus and proceeded to introduce it to my freshly cleaned ass.

It started with a slight back and forth as the tip of the dong discovered and tried to enter my anal cavity. I let them get to know one another and I applied ample amounts of lube to get the party started. Slowly the tip of the dong got more comfortable with my ass, as well as my ass with the size of the dong. The one thing that was slightly deceptive on the dong's part was that it starts out narrow, teasing me into think that everything was going to go in smoothly, but it tapers to the base, not like my dildo, which is the same diameter from to to bottom.

After a few minutes of playing with the dong, maybe it was hours, I can't really remember, the thing was in my ass to its metaphorical balls. I have a picture to prove that fact that this dong was in my ass, but the chances of anyone reading this seeing that picture is virtually zero, though I will consider all offers.

I know that things take time to get used to new things, but over all, at this point I'm still saying that I'm a top. I appreciated bottoms, and try to understand whats happening when my cock is being slammed in and out of their ass, but I don't think it's for me. I'm certainly not like the big guy the other day, where I stuck one lubed finger just past the first joint into his ass and I could have gotten him to do anything in the world for me at the point. I sometimes wish my ass was that sensitive, just to experience the waves of pleasure that I gave that guy that day, I think that if I had really pushed him, he would have passed out from pleasure.

Some things I've learned recently

I know I'm not a small guy, but at the same time, I've never used my size for any power play. Recently I met up with a guy that was one inch shorter than me, and forty pounds lighter than me, and realized that I must scare the shit out of a few guys.

This guy was probably the biggest guy that I've been naked with, and knowing that he goes to gym practically every day of the week, and I can still hold my own with him makes me feel pretty good. I've never given it much thought that when I push a guy down on the bed, or turn him over or around, that they would see me as some giant, but doing something similar to this guy was a different story, luckily he responded well to verbal commands, so I didn't have to get rough with him.

In my world, I'm a normal size person, with normal size body parts. In the man on man world, either I'm dealing with just a bunch of small guys, or I'm some giant with a huge cock. No one has tried to tie me down, so I'm going with small guys.

Bucket List

After that movie came out a few years ago, everyone now has an idea of what they are listing on their bucket list, and I admit that I've thought of a few items that I would like to put on a bucket list. The items that I've already thought of included; helping a friend bury a body in a bean field in the middle of the night, or sacrificing my life to save a bus load of school children. These particular items are not something that anyone is every going to plan or really look forward to, but they are on my list.

Who gives a shit if skydiving, or driving a fast car is on your list. If you really want to experience those things, just do it. I've heard of a weekend get away in Dallas that will put you up in a four star hotel, and on a Saturday afternoon pick you up in a limo to take you to a test track to drive a selection of very expensive cars fast on a closed circuit loop.

I know if I put items on a bucket list, they are going to be more than just something that I can do in a weekend, and will be things that can't or really shouldn't be planned, so until then I have my plastic sheeting on the ready, but not friends that I feel are going to be needed that particular help.

The Beauty of a Knot

Where does one learn to tie knots like this, I'm pretty sure the boy scouts don't teach this (at least the scout troop that I was in,) and I'm not sure if they are sailors knots. Either way there is a beauty to these knots in more ways than one.

Part of the appeal of this is that to partake of this particular fetish, one has to put themselves 100% into the hands of another person. It's this giving up of your freewill for the sexual satisfaction of another person that can be exciting for the one tied. I think this feeling would be similar to people that are "born again" where they accept a higher power into their lives that allows them not to worry about the small thing in life.

So yeah, I'm comparing a born again christian, to a sexual fetish.

My new Dildo

The past few days, I've been playing around with the dildo I've had for a while. Been feeling like its not enough, since it didn't really help the last time that I tried to bottom, so tonight I upgraded and got one of these. I wanted something with a curve like my cock, but mine curves down and one with a nice length but a bit shorter than me.

My initial thoughts are that anyone that can deep throat my cock, has some mad skills, cause I tried with this thing and the back of my throat hurts right now.

So in the next few days I'm going to take this baby for a spin and I would like to have a similar experience that I've given to other guys. Then try out the real thing after that.

The thing that does suck about this is the packaging. If I just put it in the trash, is clear that cock shaped object was inside this plastic container. The package is recyclable, but putting it in the recycle bin gets the same results. My option was to cut the packaging into bits no bigger than the size of the head of my cock, and divide the parts into three piles and drop them into trash and recycle bins in three different counties. Now no one is going to suspect that I just bought an 8" dildo to shove up my ass.