How Gay am I?

A 25 year old guy just hit me up on an online hookup site, asking for me to come by his place and suck his cock during his lunch break. My response was; You have a nice body, but I'm not much of a cocksucker, more of a top, and like getting my cock sucked more.
The intention was to turn him down without saying no, by telling him more of what I was looking for. Sent the email and didn't expect a reply, just the opportunity to see his private picks of his. His ass in a jock strap has that porn star, don't know if it just photos well, or what. So while my initial reaction to seeing his profile pic got my dick hard instantly, will I meet him? Don't know. His last email indicated that that was hot, but he needed more time, so I sit here at my desk with pre-cum oozing out of my cock, and wondering if I should just jack off and call it a day or wait.

Bucket List Item

Here is a bucket list item that I would put other there.

I've always wondered what it would be like to have an erection while face down on the sand right at the surf line. Is it possible for my cock to burrow down into the sand, and if so what would that feel like.


The first things to come to mind would be sand paper, burrowing crabs, glass, and a whole list of other things that now that I think about it I would never put my cock into the sand at any beach any where, but hey, it looks cool when this guy does it.

I think it's a European thing

I've spent some time in Europe and know that they have a different attitude about sex and sexuality. Perusing a newsstand in a major European City, and your going to be able to buy several varieties of porn magazines. Public nudity is not an issue, the English Gardens in Munich is filled with naked bodies on sunny days (the nice part is that I haven't found any pics of naked people in Munich.)

I'm pretty sure that the above photo is of some festival in Sweden, I'm guessing something that goes back to the stone age. Just imagine if Michele Bachmann were witnessing this parade of penis, if she didn't condemn it for some hedonistic display of debauchery, the world might be a better place.

Every male on this planet, has or had a penis, and every human on this planet came about because a penis got excited and spilled its seed on or near a fertile egg. Just because I like spilling my seed, with no fertile eggs in sight doesn't make it any less of a natural act.

Book Dealer

I don't know what the book is about, but for some reason I want a copy of the book.


The url at the bottom of the photo is to Alexander Cherpurnyak's web site which shows his photography. It's not porn related, just a photographer who takes pictures of body builders, along with the usual litany of photographic subjects.

Driving Exposed

I came across a short video the other day someone had shot of themselves jacking one out while driving down the highway. There is always the thrill, and danger of exposing yourself in a public way, and for some reason I got the urge to do that also.

So last week I was heading over to my buddies house after work, and planned on getting my cock all worked up a bit on the ride over there. This being just after work, and me being hungry prompted a stop at a drive-thru window. Now this was early in the trip, so no one saw more than a unzipped fly and they would have had to crawl halfway into my car to see that. In retrospect, eating hot things in a car while driving on a highway with my cock sticking out of my fly may not sound like the best idea I've ever had, but in this case nothing out of the ordinary happened.

Did I think it was "hot" and "exciting" not really, after I ate of course and had time to get my cock hard, maybe. If a passenger was in the car with me with the time and the inclination to show my cock some attention as it was poking out of my slacks, it would have been a different story. If I knew that they were going to swallow all my cum, leaving no mess, definitely. Me alone with a cock in my lap and a burger in my left hand, shifting gears with my right hand is not the stuff the porn in made of.

The poking out of my slacks was part of the issue also. I wasn't going to pull my slacks down to my knees, so just through an open fly and the folds of fabric my cock looked about 4" long.

So will I do it again, maybe if the right passenger is in the car, and I know that they are going to lick up every drop of cum that comes out of my cock.

Straps

It'd be interesting having a handle on which to grab onto as your going after a bottom.

Three Officers

A park ranger, a sheriff, and a police officer walk behind behind a bar. Sounds like the start of a joke, but as the image above shows more of the start of a sexual fantasy. I think the park ranger on the left is going to be getting the long end of the stick, and it looks like the other two can't wait for things to start.

While this has never happened to me, nor probably never will, I did have an encounter with a sheriff recently. Wasn't like most people would think, I was in a position of power, talking with another person who brought the sheriff into the conversation. So I heard a few of the stories that no sheriff would ever want to admit to, but happens all the time. It wasn't sexual in any way, it was about being preemptive with people who are prone to big officers of the law trouble.

The point is that he smelled like the guy I wrote about in a "The Smell of a Man", and I was tempted to make some sort of advance. The problem was I'm not sure if I have the balls to do that, there were several other people around, and on top of that it's not even a fantasy I have. Though I will admit a man in a uniform makes that man better looking that not being in a uniform.

After seeing the photo above, I now have a fantasy of walking into a situation where three guys in uniforms are about to start getting nasty with one another and sit back and enjoy the show.

Riding today

I've been working towards doing a 100 mile ride and it starts right now. So I'm going to be spending the next few hours looking at a lot of guys asses in spandex. Nice tight asses, and arms, and stomachs, all for the next 100 miles. My one concerns is that I've been training enough that most guys are going to be staring at my ass as I'm at the head of the peloton, leading the way.

It's amazing what can fit in an ass

I first say this photo and my initial reaction is that the guy on the left is the mortal enemy of the guy in the sling and he is reaching in and about to pull out the guys heart and laugh maniacally as the guys dies, watching his heart beat in the hands of another guy as the life fades from his body.

Put the scenario in an R rated film and a good christian person will go and see that and maybe even laugh manically along with the killer. Because obviously to have the power to reach into another person and pull out their still beating heart requires the conviction of a true believer to occur.

Have the same scenario in a film where hard cocks are also shown, and suddenly it becomes a depravity of society that must end, or all of mankind is going to fall apart at the seams.

Personally I'm just amazed that the bottom, in this case, is experiencing pleasure on a level that most people will never experience, and that a human appendage of that size and length can fit into an orifice to that depth. I would guess that stuff like this has gone on since the dawn of man, and just because a photo of this is now available to be seen by someone that couldn't imagine such an act, doesn't mean that it's not natural. It also doesn't meant that I may every see something like this in person much less experience it.

Update on the 8" dildo

The dildo has gone well. I've learned that because it's a realistic representation of the male cock, then dong is the proper term to use in this situation. So one afternoon last week, after the office was cleared out, I pulled the box off the shelf where I am storing said phallus and proceeded to introduce it to my freshly cleaned ass.

It started with a slight back and forth as the tip of the dong discovered and tried to enter my anal cavity. I let them get to know one another and I applied ample amounts of lube to get the party started. Slowly the tip of the dong got more comfortable with my ass, as well as my ass with the size of the dong. The one thing that was slightly deceptive on the dong's part was that it starts out narrow, teasing me into think that everything was going to go in smoothly, but it tapers to the base, not like my dildo, which is the same diameter from to to bottom.

After a few minutes of playing with the dong, maybe it was hours, I can't really remember, the thing was in my ass to its metaphorical balls. I have a picture to prove that fact that this dong was in my ass, but the chances of anyone reading this seeing that picture is virtually zero, though I will consider all offers.

I know that things take time to get used to new things, but over all, at this point I'm still saying that I'm a top. I appreciated bottoms, and try to understand whats happening when my cock is being slammed in and out of their ass, but I don't think it's for me. I'm certainly not like the big guy the other day, where I stuck one lubed finger just past the first joint into his ass and I could have gotten him to do anything in the world for me at the point. I sometimes wish my ass was that sensitive, just to experience the waves of pleasure that I gave that guy that day, I think that if I had really pushed him, he would have passed out from pleasure.

Some things I've learned recently

I know I'm not a small guy, but at the same time, I've never used my size for any power play. Recently I met up with a guy that was one inch shorter than me, and forty pounds lighter than me, and realized that I must scare the shit out of a few guys.

This guy was probably the biggest guy that I've been naked with, and knowing that he goes to gym practically every day of the week, and I can still hold my own with him makes me feel pretty good. I've never given it much thought that when I push a guy down on the bed, or turn him over or around, that they would see me as some giant, but doing something similar to this guy was a different story, luckily he responded well to verbal commands, so I didn't have to get rough with him.

In my world, I'm a normal size person, with normal size body parts. In the man on man world, either I'm dealing with just a bunch of small guys, or I'm some giant with a huge cock. No one has tried to tie me down, so I'm going with small guys.

Bucket List

After that movie came out a few years ago, everyone now has an idea of what they are listing on their bucket list, and I admit that I've thought of a few items that I would like to put on a bucket list. The items that I've already thought of included; helping a friend bury a body in a bean field in the middle of the night, or sacrificing my life to save a bus load of school children. These particular items are not something that anyone is every going to plan or really look forward to, but they are on my list.

Who gives a shit if skydiving, or driving a fast car is on your list. If you really want to experience those things, just do it. I've heard of a weekend get away in Dallas that will put you up in a four star hotel, and on a Saturday afternoon pick you up in a limo to take you to a test track to drive a selection of very expensive cars fast on a closed circuit loop.

I know if I put items on a bucket list, they are going to be more than just something that I can do in a weekend, and will be things that can't or really shouldn't be planned, so until then I have my plastic sheeting on the ready, but not friends that I feel are going to be needed that particular help.

The Beauty of a Knot

Where does one learn to tie knots like this, I'm pretty sure the boy scouts don't teach this (at least the scout troop that I was in,) and I'm not sure if they are sailors knots. Either way there is a beauty to these knots in more ways than one.

Part of the appeal of this is that to partake of this particular fetish, one has to put themselves 100% into the hands of another person. It's this giving up of your freewill for the sexual satisfaction of another person that can be exciting for the one tied. I think this feeling would be similar to people that are "born again" where they accept a higher power into their lives that allows them not to worry about the small thing in life.

So yeah, I'm comparing a born again christian, to a sexual fetish.

My new Dildo

The past few days, I've been playing around with the dildo I've had for a while. Been feeling like its not enough, since it didn't really help the last time that I tried to bottom, so tonight I upgraded and got one of these. I wanted something with a curve like my cock, but mine curves down and one with a nice length but a bit shorter than me.

My initial thoughts are that anyone that can deep throat my cock, has some mad skills, cause I tried with this thing and the back of my throat hurts right now.

So in the next few days I'm going to take this baby for a spin and I would like to have a similar experience that I've given to other guys. Then try out the real thing after that.

The thing that does suck about this is the packaging. If I just put it in the trash, is clear that cock shaped object was inside this plastic container. The package is recyclable, but putting it in the recycle bin gets the same results. My option was to cut the packaging into bits no bigger than the size of the head of my cock, and divide the parts into three piles and drop them into trash and recycle bins in three different counties. Now no one is going to suspect that I just bought an 8" dildo to shove up my ass.