It is possible to suck a cock and not be gay.

Reading some blogs from other married guys is interesting, because in a way I feel that I'm different, that if I wanted to say that I would never touch another guy in any sexual way for the rest of my life that I wouldn't feel that I would be missing out on anything. When I was nineteen, I had an experience with a guy that soured me for decades, and while I looked at porn during that time, I never had the feeling that I was missing anything or needed the touch of a guy.

For me being with a guy is not comparable to being with my wife. I'm not thinking of my partner needs like I do with my wife, I'm think of my cock and how soon, or if I can put off cumming. With a guy it's the same equipment, the same goal, I know the system, I also know that a bottom can go a lot time with my cock moing in and out of his ass. With a bottom, the deeper and faster that I pound his ass the better for him and for me. With my wife it's about getting her to a second or third orgasm before I start thinking about getting myself off, and sometimes it's all about her. With a guy it's about getting off, being a guy with another guy. For me, it's not about an emotional connection with another guy, but there is a bonding connection with another male, that is difference from being with a female. The more that I get with guys the more bonding that I am make with these guys, and that I one aspect that I was looking for when I started this experimentation.

Half the Solution

You get this guy and his twin together, and then could they simultaneously fuck one another?

Something that I hadn't considered before is that it the "Single Double" were to be performed, there would be four balls being pushed around in a small space between the cocks and the assholes.

Unless I hear from someone who has performed it or knows of someone who has performed it, or has seen a video of this, I'll just chalk it up to dreams on my part.

Is this possible?

The above is a simple sketch of something that I have wondered about for a while. Is it possible to two guys to have their cocks in each others ass at the same time? Has this ever happened, has it been in a porn flick?

I figure you would have to be in a scissor position, with legs intertwined, facing away from one another, and bend your cock into each others ass. It might take two guys with cocks long enough to reach, or is there enough of a connection that shorter cocks would work.

If there is a reader of this blog that has a partner to experiment with, let me know if this is even possible,

Change

My last post, and the experience from that post has changed me in a way that I'm not sure what the outcome is going to be. First off, its now three days later and just now getting erections again, its like I've spent several days of sexual energy Monday night and just now recovering. Second; it was something that I've never done before, number of times and position, and I'm horny now thinking about it. Third, my wife wanted me Tuesday morning and I didn't have anything left, I was spent, she's mad at me now.

I really love the facial express this guy has, and that smile just before going down on the cock is priceless.

Sore dick for a different reason this time and a different place

The evening was planned in advance, at P's house where A was going to show up, turns out that A had a traffic accident and wasn't going to make it. At the last hour, P got ahold of B for the evening. I hadn't met B and told P that I would be there just before 6pm. Got there, walked in and what I found was B naked, on his knees with his head in P's naked lap. What's a guy to do when he walks in on this situation, but to get naked as quickly as possible to let B have a taste of my cock also.

As B sucks on my cock, and what a great cock sucker he is, it felt like I was putting my cock into a soft velvety warm, fleashy hole, that craved cock. As he was sucking on my cock, P had his back side and started to prepare to the two hour pounding and six loads that B got out of us that evening.

First it was my cock in his mouth and P's cock in his ass, P was in the chair, I was on the edge of the ottoman, and B was on all fours on the floor between us. B was sucking my cock almost to the point of blowing my load, after a few minutes we turned B around with P in his mouth and I had his ass, and what and ass it was. Only a few minutes into the action and I was already blowing my first load with my cock in his ass. I was still very much hard so I continued working my cock in and out of his ass, P and I worked up a rhythm where we had B rocking between us, each putting a large cock into him, and B was loving every second of it.

Then we switched again, with my cock in his mouth and P's cock in his ass. He was loving ever thrust that P was giving him to where at every thrust B went down on my cock balls deep. Did I mention that he deep throated my cock from the get go. I've never had a guy keep my cock balls deep for as long as B did, then I would start to move in and out knowing that I was truly fucking his throat, and he wanted all I could give him.

I also didn't mention that for a guy his age, he had a great looking body, a slight gut, but nice broad shoulders, big arms, the body of a guy that works with his hands. A guy that I've seen on construction site and you would never guess that tonight he was getting tag teamed and loving every second of the action.

Back to the story, I came a second time in him mouth while getting a second great blow job. Then P and I switched positions again, and this is where is got really good. I had B on the ottoman, with his knees on the edge and his face was down in P crotch giving him another blow job. I was pounding him pushing my cock as far into him as possible, putting most of my weight on my cock and my arms resting on his shoulders. I know from the time that I tried bottoming, that every deep thrust and my balls slapping against his balls, was sending wave after wave of pleasure into hims, and he was asking for more. I had to rest a bit every few minutes, as much for my sake as for his. He was asking for it deeper, that is when I turned my pelvis a bit sideways to his, and realized that I could go about another inch or so in, almost to the point where my balls were being squeezed between us.

I've never seen this position in any porn flick, I would guess that my crouch was pressed so close to his ass that there wasn't room to see anything. It reminded me of when I was young and first realized what masturbation was, I would lay on my stomach and put pressure on the base of my cock and bend my cock at the base back toward my ass. It wasn't till years later that I learned to cup my hand around my cock and make the universal gesture for jacking off. Tonight with my cock in his ass, at this angle and the pressure at the base of my cock, I was making small motions, but my curved cock was hitting him in all the right places and before I knew it I had cum a third time.

Afterwards rest, talking, playing with my cock, and bit with his, my cock slowing became rigid again, and P told B to get on his knees and service my cock. So the third blow job was beginning, which got P all worked up again and he slide his cock back into B's ass. all the while B has got my cock in his great mouth, and before I know it and to my surprise I cum a fourth time. This was was a bit different, as I need more manual help. My hand was wrapped around my cock as I was jacking it, as B's face alternated between licking behind my balls and sucking my balls. It felt great to hold a guys head to my crotch as he got a taste of my balls and I could feel his manly stubble on my legs, thats just a feeling that is getting me hard again just thinking about it.

Now for the part where I tell you how my cock got sore. While I had B's ass in the air on the ottoman and pounding away at his ass, my cock was so far up his ass, I was beginning to wonder if my balls were were being pulled into his ass with each thrust, and in a sense they were. What was happening was the skin around the base of my cock was being pulled and rubbing against his ass, and the hair that was in between us was asking as friction, there is a little red welt there now, and I hope I don't have to explain that to anyone I know. It also didn't help much that B was grabbing my balls pulling me toward him to get as much out of me as he possible could. End result, I need to cut some of the hair I have around penis.

PS. Yes that is a picture of my cock after two hours of fucking and four loads.

No online profile

It's only been a day since I deleted my online profiles, and I'm having bit of a withdraw experience. Looking at online profiles is a bit like looking at a catalog shopping for all the things that one might want, but with this, you send a message and you can get another guy to gate naked and roll around in the hay, so to speak.

I would say that the majority of hits I got online were from guys that I wasn't interested in. Some of the messages did go for a bit, till I saw the one photo that made me go ewh. Then there were the budding connections with guys that had great bodies, nice faces, could hold their own in an extended im, then when it came time to shit or get off the pot, they disappeared. I know they chickened out for one reason or another, it just that I was one email away from getting their contact info and meeting them in person, but instead silence, nothing.

I want to go online right now and shop around for a potential connection, but the reality is that a previous connection and me will be meeting in the morning, when I'm at my best. This all occurred through email, in know the place, I know the guy, he wants my cock, so everyone is happy. Then on Saturday afternoon I have a connection with two guys that I've seen before, and will be with one of them again on Monday night. So my calendar is full but still the need for conquest is there, wanting me to search out the elusive muscled 35 year old virgin that lives within a five minute drive of my neighborhood, with a seven inch cock, loves to bottom, will do anything that I say, and preferably toothless. I'm fairly certain that this person does not exist though. So I sit back and build up my stamina for the next four days.

A4A Profile is gone

I deleted my profile on Adam4Adam.

Part of me wanted to keep it, the idea of being able to looking at pictures of guys in the area that, in theory, that are just an click away from sucking my cock, is tempting. The reality is that there is always going to be someone new, someone that may be more interesting than the guys I've already met, someone that might be the perfect guy for me to get to know. Without stopping the trolling, and getting to know the few guys that I've met, see if there is anything there, I'll never know. The unknown is that the guys that I have met, are still online and still looking at other guys. So what is the natural process of the online hookup? Is it always just one more cocksucker to meet, one more bottom that wants my cock.

When I started this I was thinking that I would be nice to have a good friend, that I could also mess around with behind closed doors. Someone that I could be riding a bike with and when we stopped to take a break, I could turn to him and say, show me your cock right now, and he would do it, and maybe more. Someone that would know me, and possibly my family, but would be a guy friend more so than a fuck friend. The few guys that I have actually played with are across the board, from a young son type, to a gay married couple, to a single guy that likes to bottom when I call, to the other married guy that I got to cum just using my cock in his ass.

Some of the things that I've learned:

-A friend can be found, but it takes time to develop

-The younger a guy is the more he is self conscience about himself

-Guys that think having a cock up their ass is going to send them to hell, yet they keep coming back for more, I've not figured out yet, I'll have to do more study on this.

-If I had done this even ten years ago I would have been nervous at every step along the way, now, not so nervous.

-I do confess that I have two Profiles, and the main difference was on one, I listed myself at being seven years younger (a few guys that I met said that I looked the age of the second profile.) The interesting difference was the guys that liked me as a younger guy, than my real age. I spent more time and effort and talked with more guys as my real age, it seemed that every young Latino twenty-something wanted a piece of me.

-Guys that think its morally wrong to mess around with guys are sometimes the biggest bottoms out there, and if I heard that any of them publicly made anti-gay slurs I would probably have to figure out a way to out or discredit them. Cause no one is going to suck my cock, then publicly condemn his own actions.

There may be more, and I will go in detail about each thing that I have learned and keep a record of that guys that I will still be seeing.

At some point in the future I may reestablish a profile on the sites, but for now I'm just going to see how things play out with the guys I've met.

When do I end this crazy shit, on the ides of March?

This portion was written in December of 2010:

I first discover CL in the summer of 2010, and read the ad's for almost six months before I got up the nerve to respond to one. In my mind not every ad had a happy ending, but most did, I also thought that people posting the ad's were normal, guys looking for connections, now I realize that theer is a certain segment of the population on CL that what sex, anyway they can get it, by anyone you is willing to dish ot out. In the population of people identifing themselves as straight, they would be called whores.

There also seems to be some depravity in the amount of time and effort that guys are spending cruising the sites, looking at the same profiles, trying to remember if I've hooked up with that guy, and I include myself in this description. At some point I'm just going to have to say that my left hand is going to be my best friend from here on out and there will be no more hook ups, no more guys dropping by the office peddling blow jobs, and no more freezing my ass off in the car trying to get the smell of some guys house smell out of my hair and clothes before I get home to my wife with the hyper sence of smell.

Fom here on out I need to start just making this crap up as I go along, it couldn't be any weirder than reality, and CL will always be there to give me inspiration when ever I'm looking for a 22 year old guy that is willing to do  anything that I can think of that would invoke my dick in any orifice his body has that it would fit, and one that it wouldn't.

Update middle of February:
I keep thinking I'm going to delete my A4A profile, its just that one more guy I want to meet to see if we have anything in common. As for CL, I look on there occasionally just for kicks, it is like the last desperate attempt for a hookup, and I would like to think that I'm not that desperate. Maybe by the middle of March I will have deleted my profile, kept the guys that I want to get to know better on my email list, and avoid the few mistakes that I've made in the past few months. I bet everyone has made a mistake in that they/I should have made contact with that one guy, and shouldn't have meet him at his place, and shouldn't have gotten naked with him, and shouldn't have done something that I wish I hadn't. That will be one of the nice things about deleting the profile, the contact that those guys have with me will be deleted also.

Sore dick

My dick is sore, from a guy with a bit to much teeth, after pound him for a good solid forty-five minutes. Got to give it a rest. I also need to put a picture here of the scar on my cock from a guy with teeth a bit to sharp.

I kissed a guy

Two first occurred to and for me today, I kissed a guy and he came without touching himself while I was fucking him, basically in the position as in the photo above.

It all started with my regular guys, but one of them couldn't make it, so it was just two of us. I got to the apartment five minutes later than I told him I was going to be there, I walked in and he was naked on the bed ready for me. We talked as I took my shirt off, the knelt down to suck on is nice sized cock. After a minute or so of that I took the rest of my cloths off and we both got on the bed in a makeshift 69 position to suck dick some more. After what seemed like a long period of time and I was rock hard, I put on a condom and started ti insert. I didn't mention that while I was sucking his dick I had a finger or two in his ass, well I proceeded tout my cock where my fingers had been. Him bent over the edge of the bed wasn't working, so I laid down on the bed as he straddled me and slowly settled down on my cock. We were this way for a bit, letting him get comfortable the we proceeded to get him on his back without me pulling out, not a problem. With him on his back I started slowing and built up my speed, I coasted once or twice as I positioned his legs over my shoulder for better penetration, the whole time we were face to face and kissing. Not like making out, just playful biting and pressing of our lips together.

After a some more time of me thrusting into him and us kissing, suddenly he came right on to his stomach. This is what I thought all bottoms would want, a hands free orgasm. Then I pulled put out, slipped the condom off and proceeded to add my cum with his on his stomach.

How Gay is Gay

After the post the other day with the video of the two guys. The more I think about it the more I realize, is that the difference between being gay and being straight is just preference at the time of erection.

I always considered my attraction to guys to be an appreciation of the male form, like an artist sculpting a thing of beauty. Also I've always seen the male for as the ideal body that I would like to have, so when I get an erection looking at underwear models when I was growing up it wasn't that I was going to stick my dick in them or visa versa, but more like I was going to be them someday. I went through a few years where age, lack of exercise and laziness all converged and added about forty pounds of blubber onto my body, but I'm beyond that now and starting to look like my idealized male form from when I was younger. So now I wonder if I'm narcissistic.

Back to the gay thing, growing up you were gay or you were straight there was no grey area. If you so much as touched an erect penis, then that made you gay, and there was not going back from it. Also being gay meant that people would stop talking to you, friends would no longer be friends, people would treat you different just because they thought you were different from them. Most of these attitudes still persist to this day, and thus I will probably never come out of the shallow closet and tell the world that I'm bi-sexual. Personally I think most of the people that I see on a regular basis just wouldn't understand it.

"So you not gay, but you like having sex with guys?" they would say. and in their minds they would begin the process to shut me out. People want to be around like minded people, its not pretty, but its hardwired into our genes. So what is one to do, keep the secret, live my life. If a friend told me that he/her wanted to be Glenn Beck and was going to start talking and acting like Glenn Beck, I would treat them not to different than they would treat me it they knew my story. We all keep secrets, were all human. and there is noting average about an individual.

Drive by attraction

The other day driving to work in the morning, noticed a guy next to me at the stop light. Driving a red Mazada four door car, sitting in the drives seat a guy that caught my eye. Short trim hair, white shirt, and tie. Even though I only could see from the shoulders up, I could just tell that the guy had a good looking body. At the stop light slightly behind him I stared at him. I'm pretty sure he noticed me, giving me the glance that told me he was uncomfortable but excited to be the center of someones attention, even if it was for the duration of a few stop lights.

Never make fun of a small penis, unless it's on a douche

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More on Bottoming

As I mentioned before I tried bottoming and at the deep thrust I could feel something. I describe it as a lighter that is out of fuel when you need to light a cigarette, you flick and flick and you only get sparks. Thats what I felt, only sparks.

I was talking to a bottom last night, after me and another guy finished with him and he tried to describe it also, and though he couldn't really put it into words, I knew what he was talking about. Where as I was just sparks, he has a flame thrower at each thrust. He was really getting in to it, and loving it as long as me and the other guy could dish it out. He also mentioned that he had mini orgasms throughout the evening as many as twelve before finally blowing his load on his stomach.

I guess every guy is different and having the feeling of a flame thrower covering your body with every thrust of a top cock pounding into your ass is not something that everyone has the capacity to achieve.

I may bottom again sometime in the future, I'm not ruling it out, but for now I'm happy being a top, and like'n the bottom boys. What still scares me a bit is that to get the real feeling of bottoming I'm going to have to get a dick as big as mine to ride, and if the bottom boy from last night is any indication I might become a bottom slut for large cock. The scary part is if I crave it enough to cloud my judgement of rational decisions, just for the feeling, cause I can see where that might get addictive.

The one thing that I don't know is that bottom guys, are they like that from the beginning or is the experience something that is gradually grown into. If I find little pleasure in it now, is that the way it will always be, no matter the size of the cock.

Twenty five years ago, if I knew that two guys could be together like this, I might have a husband now. I found these guys while looking at porn videos, and there is just something there that I wish I was friends with these guys. I gather that they are really active military when the video was recorded, or really good actors, and that takes balls in the DADT era.