How Gay is Gay

After the post the other day with the video of the two guys. The more I think about it the more I realize, is that the difference between being gay and being straight is just preference at the time of erection.

I always considered my attraction to guys to be an appreciation of the male form, like an artist sculpting a thing of beauty. Also I've always seen the male for as the ideal body that I would like to have, so when I get an erection looking at underwear models when I was growing up it wasn't that I was going to stick my dick in them or visa versa, but more like I was going to be them someday. I went through a few years where age, lack of exercise and laziness all converged and added about forty pounds of blubber onto my body, but I'm beyond that now and starting to look like my idealized male form from when I was younger. So now I wonder if I'm narcissistic.

Back to the gay thing, growing up you were gay or you were straight there was no grey area. If you so much as touched an erect penis, then that made you gay, and there was not going back from it. Also being gay meant that people would stop talking to you, friends would no longer be friends, people would treat you different just because they thought you were different from them. Most of these attitudes still persist to this day, and thus I will probably never come out of the shallow closet and tell the world that I'm bi-sexual. Personally I think most of the people that I see on a regular basis just wouldn't understand it.

"So you not gay, but you like having sex with guys?" they would say. and in their minds they would begin the process to shut me out. People want to be around like minded people, its not pretty, but its hardwired into our genes. So what is one to do, keep the secret, live my life. If a friend told me that he/her wanted to be Glenn Beck and was going to start talking and acting like Glenn Beck, I would treat them not to different than they would treat me it they knew my story. We all keep secrets, were all human. and there is noting average about an individual.