It is possible to suck a cock and not be gay.

Reading some blogs from other married guys is interesting, because in a way I feel that I'm different, that if I wanted to say that I would never touch another guy in any sexual way for the rest of my life that I wouldn't feel that I would be missing out on anything. When I was nineteen, I had an experience with a guy that soured me for decades, and while I looked at porn during that time, I never had the feeling that I was missing anything or needed the touch of a guy.

For me being with a guy is not comparable to being with my wife. I'm not thinking of my partner needs like I do with my wife, I'm think of my cock and how soon, or if I can put off cumming. With a guy it's the same equipment, the same goal, I know the system, I also know that a bottom can go a lot time with my cock moing in and out of his ass. With a bottom, the deeper and faster that I pound his ass the better for him and for me. With my wife it's about getting her to a second or third orgasm before I start thinking about getting myself off, and sometimes it's all about her. With a guy it's about getting off, being a guy with another guy. For me, it's not about an emotional connection with another guy, but there is a bonding connection with another male, that is difference from being with a female. The more that I get with guys the more bonding that I am make with these guys, and that I one aspect that I was looking for when I started this experimentation.