Why is it that no one ever seems to live up to the fantasy image that I've created for them? If you have all the stats of having a porn quality body, then you show me an image of yourself, and it's not porn quality, what should I think?
It's all because of this one guy that I see on a weekly basis. He goes to the gym every day of the week. Based on there not being any hair on his arms, or poking out of his stretch polo shirt on his chest, I envision that the guys is smooth all over. I also envision getting him to a place where I can get him naked and sweaty. When I chat with guys online that seem to have stats that would make them look like this guy, after seeing their photos I realize that they work out to get a good body to cover up the fact that they've been hit repeatedly upside the head with an ugly stick.
I know this is all being a bit nit picky on my part, but its part of a defensive measure on my part. I don't want to meet just random guy after random guy. I'd rather just sit in front of a computer screen and masturbate to my fantasies, than jump on everything that comes along. I also know that getting to know someone can make the difference on how I perceive them, so I'll just wait, no hurry here. Also I can't get an STD from someone just by telling them I'm going to stick my raw throbbing cock into their ass, like I could if I actually did do that.
Wow, how I wish you were wrong.....but you're not. Christmas Eve day, I went to some young hot kid's apartment and stuck my raw dick in his ass, just because I was stupid (I brought protection for fuck sake).
ReplyDeleteAfterwards, I got so freaked out I went to the clinic for testing, and they told me to come back in a week, as it was too soon after possible exposure to detect anything.
I went back a week later, and now have to wait another week for the result to come back from that lab. They did give me a bit of news right then and there....... seems like some infection on the tip of my penis. Could be just a sexually transmitted urethral bacteria, or could be chlamydia. Either way, I was given a mega dose of antibiotics, which made me nauseous the rest of the day, and told not to have sex for 7 day....which I wasn't going to do anyway, until the test results come back.
So, yah, I'm gonna get a bit more picky, and a whole lot more protected from now on.
Ashamed and Embarrassed.