Memories

Something about seeing this pic brings me back to my youth. Not in the sense that I ever did anything like this but that was the fantasy. There wasn't the idea of fucking another guy, or being fucked by him, but just being naked outdoors with another good looking guy. Sadly nothing remotely like this ever happened, though I thought about it enough.

On a side note, I always wondered how these guys manage to get their pants and still have their boots laced up. I know the reality is that they did it between takes, but it still a bit disconcerting to see it in sequence, like magic. Either way, it would be nice to walk up to these guys, and hang out with them in the buff as we all look at the truck frame their cloths are resting on.

Narcissism

I like to think that I have a body like this, just hold in my gut a bit, shoulders back and this could be me, minus the tatt on the left shoulder. I've always thought my attraction to other guys was a bit narcissistic, though as I'm getting older, fit guys in their 30's are looking pretty good.

The Human Form

How can anyone look at the human form as depicted in the above photo and not say that it is a thing of beauty? This is a photo of a guys ass, there is no indication of the models personality, or orientation, and for someone to impose those views haphazardly onto a random photo tells more about them-self, than about the model in the photo. While many people would classify this as pornography, I would think that  was because their minds filled in the blanks, and their guilt overcame there sense of beauty.

So just look at the photo, try not to get an erection or think of how you would apply your mouth to various parts of this guys body, or how other parts of his body would fit well in your body. The photo is of the male human body, and the human body is a wonder to behold, sometimes beyond the hint of sexual arousal.

So now you've had time to appreciate the human body for a  moment, now you can pretend it's me, and my large erect cock is lurking in the shadows looking for release, and go.

When I first started to look at the male nude form, at a young age with the underwear section of the catalogs, somewhere inside I never thought that I wanted to fuck or be fucked by these guys, but more, in a sense, be like these guys. It might have been a delusion on my part to cover up my homosexual desires, but now that I have actually participated in homosexual activities, I still have the same feeling. So maybe it's more of a narcissistic feeling where if I had a twin that looked just like me, we would have been sexually active with one another from our first hard-on's. Maybe it something about the looking of being self confident and proud that I pick up in a picture like this, I'm not sure. One thing that I am sure of is that, all of this stuff that I am doing with guys isn't necessarily just about getting off, but about something more. I don't think our society has a title or a niche for what I am, but now I don't feel that it's so odd, or rare in other guys.

Weekend riding

A sunny weekend is here, the weather is perfect for riding, and my buddy that I met last year might be riding. The fantasy is to have a riding partner that  is at the same level as me, and let's me fuck them, and I might have that this season. This is not something that has just happened, or lucked into, but something that I'm going to have to work at, still, to some degree.

I think the more interesting part of this is just being with another guy who has similar desires as me and is in a similar circumstance. Part of me thinks that the taboo of getting naked with another guy is the society that we live in, and erections between guys in really just a natural thing.

Batman

This is true.

and if you look like this please wear batman underwear like the guy above. Unlike the guy at the gas station recently that was too old, fat, slobby, ugly, and much more with the batman waistband peeking out above his cut-off shorts. From the front, his belly hid the waistband, from the side and rear, it was easily seen and more. But ignore all of that and just picture the bat logo above and reaching for it. 

It's official I'm not a bottom, not Versatile, just a Top

So the other day, I had some time to myself and wanted to spend some quality time with the phallus that I have, but then I realized the the box I hid it in was gone, still can't find the damn thing. I don't know where the hell it is and wondering how to explain to someone in the future that may find the box, open it up and see an 8" brown cock and balls just sitting there. That's another day, and I'm about 45% sure that the box was in a place that is beyond association with me now, it's a long story that involves, drunks, cops, and a break-in that, I won't go into here. So I went to the back up dildo to spend some quality time trying to find the spot on my prostate that is going to send me over the edge.

I get naked, clean myself out, I relax, and slowly work this dildo into my ass. I've got the prostate targeted at the tip and along the shaft of the dildo, working it into my ass with my left hand, as I'm jacking my cock with my right hand. I keep this up for the better part of two hours, the whole time, my cock is edging, I'm watching porn, and I'm all alone. The bottom line is that I probably would have more fun and excitement if it had been a rectal exam administered by a good looking naked doctor, who liked to deep throat large cocks. After two hours of this, I really gave it my "a game", and while I came pretty intense and the amount of cum was noticeable less than usual, the overall experience wasn't that great.

To make matters clearer for me, when I got home that evening, I grabbed the scalp massager, see picture above, and used it on my head. Rubbing those thin wires through my scalp sent chills and tingles up and down my body, and if bottoming for me was anything at all like that, I would be such a slut bottom. Talking with bottoms, they have the sensitivity in their ass, and the ability to have those prostate stimulated orgasms that just send them over the top. I know now that I don't have those sensations, and having a cock, dildo, or other things in my ass, is going to be as stimulating to me as a rectal exam, just wondering when it's going to be over.

On the plus side, I seem to have a really large cock, and if the right guys are around my erect cock, and I'm properly stimulated, I've been known to pump out three loads of cum over the course of a couple of hours. While bottoms seem to call it a day as soon as they cum once, that is why I rarely play with a good bottoms cock, cause if they want my cock in their ass for as long as I can keep an erection, then they better not cum.